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  Evening is the Whole Day

  Preeta Samarasan

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  HOUGHTON MIFFLIN COMPANY

  Boston • New York

  2008

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  Copyright © 2008 by Preeta Samarasan

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  Library of Congress Cataloguing-in-Publication Data

  Samarasan, Preeta.

  Evening is the whole day / Preeta Samarasan.

  p. cm.

  ISBN-13: 978-0-618-87447-7

  ISBN-10: 0-618-87447-x

  1. East Indians—Malaysia—Fiction. 2. Immigrants—Malaysia—Fiction.

  3. Upper class families—Fiction. 4. Malaysia—Fiction. I. Title.

  PR9530.9.S26E94 2008

  813'.6—dc22 2008004729

  Book design by Melissa Lotfy

  Printed in the United States of America

  QUM 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

  The author is grateful for permission to quote from the following:

  "Sparrow" by Paul Simon. Copyright © 1963 Paul Simon. Used by permission of the Publisher: Paul Simon Music.

  "Cecilia" by Paul Simon. Copyright © 1969 Paul Simon. Used by permission of the Publisher: Paul Simon Music.

  "The Sun Is Burning." Words and music by Ian Campbell. Copyright © 1964 (Renewed), 1965 (Renewed) TRO Essex Music Ltd., London, England TRO–Essex Music, Inc., controls all publication rights for the USA and Canada. Used by permission.

  "Mera Juta Hai Japani," by Shailendra Singh. Copyright © 1955 by Saregama India Ltd. All rights reserved. Used by permission.

  "Darling Darling Darling" by Ilaiyaraja. Used by permission of the Indian Record Mfg. Co. Ltd.

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  For Mom, Pop, and my brothers,

  who taught me that words matter

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  History begins only at the point where things go wrong; history is born only with trouble, with perplexity, with regret. So that hard on the heels of the word Why comes the sly and wistful word If. If it had not been for ... If only ... Were it not ... Those useless Ifs of history. And, constantly impeding, deflecting, distracting the backward searchings of the question why, exists this other form of retrogression: If only we could have it back. A New Beginning. If only we could return...

  —from Waterland by Graham Swift

  The sun goes down and the sky reddens, pain grows sharp,

  light dwindles. Then is evening

  when jasmine flowers open, the deluded say

  But evening is the great brightening dawn

  when crested cocks crow all through the tall city

  and evening is the whole day

  for those without their lovers.

  —Kuruntokai 234, translated by George L. Hart

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  CONTENTS

  1. The Ignominious Departure of Chellamservant Daughter-of-Muniandy 1

  2. Big House Beginnings 17

  3. The Necessary Sacrifice of the Burdensome Relic 29

  4. An Old-Fashioned Courtship 44

  5. The Recondite Return of Paati the Dissatisfied 67

  6. After Great Expectations 91

  7. Power Struggles 110

  8. What Aasha Saw 136

  9. The Futile Incident of the Sapphire Pendant 175

  10. The God of Gossip Conquers the Garden Temple 199

  11. The Final Visit of the Fleet-footed Uncle 224

  12. The Unlucky Revelation of Chellam Newservant 249

  13. What Uncle Ballroom Saw 273

  14. The Golden Descent of Chellam, the Bringer of Succor 312

  15. The Glorious Ascent of Uma the Oldest-Eldest 327

  Acknowledgments 340

  1. THE IGNOMINIOUS DEPARTURE OF CHELLAMSERVANT DAUGHTER-OF-MUNIANDY

  September 6, 1980

  THERE IS, stretching delicate as a bird's head from the thin neck of the Kra Isthmus, a land that makes up half of the country called Malaysia. Where it dips its beak into the South China Sea, Singapore hovers like a bubble escaped from its throat. This bird's head is a springless summerless autumnless winterless land. One day might be a drop wetter or a mite drier than the last, but almost all are hot, damp, bright, bursting with lazy tropical life, conducive to endless tea breaks and mad, jostling, honking rushes through town to get home before the afternoon downpour. These are the most familiar rains, the violent silver ropes that flood the playing fields and force office workers to wade to bus stops in shoes that fill like buckets. Blustering and melodramatic, the afternoon rains cause traffic jams at once terrible—choked with the black smoke of lorries and the screeching brakes of schoolbuses—and beautiful: aglow with winding lines of watery yellow headlights that go on forever, with blue streetlamps reflected in burgeoning puddles, with the fluorescent melancholy of empty roadside stalls. Every day appears to begin with a blaze and end with this deluge, so that past and present and future run together in an infinite, steaming river.

  In truth, though, there are days that do not blaze and rains less fierce. Under a certain kind of mild morning drizzle the very earth breathes slow and deep. Mist rises from the dark treetops on the limestone hills outside Ipoh town. Grey mist, glowing green hills: on such mornings it is obvious how sharply parts of this land must have reminded the old British rulers of their faraway country.

  To the north of Ipoh, clinging to the outermost hem of the town's not-so-voluminous outskirts, is Kingfisher Lane, a long, narrow line from the "main" road (one corner shop, one bus stop, occasional lorries) to the limestone hills (ancient, inscrutable, riddled with caves and illegal cave dwellers). Here the town's languid throng feels distant even on hot afternoons; on drizzly mornings like this one it is absurd, improbable. The smoke from the cement factories and the sharp odors of the pork van and the fish vendor are washed away before they can settle, but the moist air traps native sounds and smells: the staticky songs of one neighbor's radio, the generous sweet spices of another's simmering mutton curry. The valley feels cloistered and coddled. A quiet benevolence cups the morning in its palm.

  In 1980 the era of sale-by-floorplan and overnight housing developments is well under way, but the houses on Kingfisher Lane do not match one another. Some are wide and airy, with verandas in the old Malay fashion. A few weakly evoke the splendor of Chinese towkays' Penang mansions with gate-flanking dragons and red-and-gold trim. Most sit close to the lane, but one or two are set farther back, at the ends of gravel driveways. About halfway down the lane, shielded by its black gates and its robust greenery, is the Big House, number 79, whose bright blue bulk has dominated Kingfisher Lane since it was an unpaved track with nothing else along it but saga trees. Though termites will be discovered, in a few weeks, to have been secretly devouring its foundation for years (and workmen will be summoned to an urgent rescue mission), the Big House stands proud. It has presided over the laying of all the others' foundations. It has witnessed their slow aging, their repaintings and renovations. Departures, deaths, arrivals.

  This morning, after only a year at the Big House, Chellam the no-longer-new-servant is leaving. Four people strain to believe that the fresh weather augurs not only neat closure, but a new beginning. Clean slates and cleaner consciences. Surely nothing undertaken today will come to a bad end; surely all's well with the world.

  Chellam is eighteen years old, the same age as Uma, the oldest-eldest daughter of the house. Only one week ago today, Uma boarded a Malaysian Airline System aeroplane bound for New York America USA, where it is now autumn. Also known as fall in America. She
left behind her parents, her eleven-year-old brother Suresh, and little Aasha, only six, whose heart cracked and cried out in protest. Today the four of them thirstily drink the morning's grey damp to soothe their various doubts about the future.

  The aeroplane that carried Uma away was enormous and white, with a moonkite on its tail, whereas Chellam is leaving on foot (and then by bus).

  She differs from Uma in many other, equally obvious, ways. A growth spurt squandered eating boiled white rice sprinkled—on good days—with salt has left her a full head shorter than Uma; her calves are as thin as chicken wings and her skin is pockmarked from the crawling childhood diseases her late mother medicated with leafy pastes and still-warm piss furtively collected in a tin pail as it streamed from the neighbors' cow. Severe myopia has crumpled her face into a permanent squint, and her shoulders are as narrow as the acute triangle of her world: at one corner the toddy shop from which she dragged her drunken father home nightly as a child; at another the dim, sordid alley in which she stood with other little girls, their eyelids dark with kajal, their toenails bright with Cutex, waiting to be picked up by a lorry driver or a bottle-shop man so that they could earn their two ringgit. At the third and final corner stands Ipoh, the town to which she was brought by some bustling, self-righteous Hindu Sangam society matron eager to rack up good karma by plucking her from prostitution and selling her into a slavery far less white; Ipoh, where, after two-three years (no one could say exactly) of working for friends of Uma's parents, Chellam was handed down to the Big House. "We got her used," Suresh had said with a smirk (dodging his Amma's mouthslap, which had been offhand at best, since Chellam hadn't been there to take offense).

  And today they're sending her back. Not just to the Dwivedis', but all the way back. Uma's Appa ordered Chellam's Appa to collect her today; neither of them could have predicted the inconvenient drizzle. Father to father, (rich) man to (poor) man, they have agreed that Chellam will be ready at such-and-such a time to be met by her Appa and led from the Big House all the way up the unpaved, rock-and-clay length of Kingfisher Lane to the bus stop on the main road, and from there onto the bus to Gopeng, and from the Gopeng bus station down more roads and more lanes until she arrives back at square minus one, the one-room hut in the red-earth village whence she emerged just a few years ago.

  A year from today, Chellam will be dead. Her father will say she committed suicide after a failed love affair. The villagers will say he beat her to death for bringing shame to her family. Chellam herself will say nothing. She will have cried so much by then that the children will have nicknamed her Filthyface for her permanent tear stains. All the women of the village won't be able to wash those stains off her cold face, and when they cremate her, the air will smell salty from all those tears.

  At twenty to ten on this September Saturday morning, she begins to drag her empty suitcase down the stairs from the storeroom where it has lived since she came a year ago. "How long ago did your Appa tell her to start packing?" Amma mutters. "Didn't we give her a month's notice? So much time she had, and now she's bringing her bag down to start!"

  But Chellam's suitcase, unlike Uma's, could never have taken a month to pack. Uma had been made to find space for all these: brand-new wool sweaters, panties with the price tags still on, blazers for formal occasions, authentic Malaysian souvenirs for yet-unmade friends, batik sarongs and coffee-table books with which to show off her culture, framed family portraits taken at Ipoh's top studio, extra film for a latest-model camera. Chellam owns, not including what she's wearing today, a single chiffon saree, three T-shirts (one free with Horlicks, one free with Milo; one a hand-me-down from Mr. Dwivedi, her old boss), four long-sleeved men's shirts (all hand-me-downs from Appa), three cotton skirts with frayed hems, one going-out blouse, and one shiny polyester skirt unsuitable for housework because it sticks to her thighs when she sweats. She also has four posters that came free with copies of Movieland magazine, but has neither the strength nor the will to take them down. Where she's going, she won't have a place to put them. All in all, it will therefore take her three minutes flat to pack, but even her mostly empty suitcase will be a strain for her weak arms only made weaker by her lack of appetite over the past few months.

  Amma will not offer Chellam tea coffee sofdrink before she goes, though she and Suresh and Aasha are just sitting down to their ten o'clock tea, and though one mug of tea sits cooling untouched on the red Formica table as Appa stands at the gate under his enormous black umbrella, speaking with Chellam's father. There wouldn't be time for Chellam to drink anything anyway. There's only one afternoon bus from Gopeng to the bus stop half a mile from their village, and if she and her father miss the eleven o'clock bus to Gopeng, they'll miss that connecting bus and have to walk all the way to their village, pulling the suitcase along behind them on its three working wheels. Chellam will probably have to do most of the pulling, and hold her father by the elbow besides, because he is drunk as usual.

  Thud thud thud goes her suitcase down the stairs, its broken wheel bent under it like a sick bird's claw. The suitcase has done nothing but sit empty in the storeroom all year, but its straps and buckles have worn themselves out and it seems now to be held shut only by several long lengths of synthetic pink raffia wound and knotted around it to keep the geckos and cockroaches out. On the uncarpeted landing the sharp edge of the broken wheel scrapes loudly against the floor. Amma flinches and shudders. "Look, look," she whispers urgently to Suresh and Aasha without taking her eyes off Chellam. "Purposely she's doing it. She is taking revenge on us it seems. For sending her home. As if after all she's done we're supposed to keep her here and feed her it seems."

  Suresh and Aasha, wide-eyed, say nothing.

  In the past two weeks the many burdens they must share but never discuss have multiplied, and among them is this suddenly effusive, outward-turned Amma who whispers and nudges, who coaxes and threatens, who leans towards them with her face contorted like a villain in an old Tamil movie, desperate for a reaction. It's as if the events of the past two weeks have dissolved the last of her reserve. This is the final victory towards which she's been privately ascending during all those long days of dead silence and tea left to cool, though precisely what the victory is neither Suresh nor Aasha is completely sure. They're sure only that whatever it is, it has come at too high a price.

  Mildly discouraged by the children's unresponsiveness, Amma takes a small, exacting sip of her tea. "Chhi! Too much sugar I put," she remarks conversationally.

  "For all we know," Amma says, newly galvanized by her too-sweet tea, perhaps, or the mulishness of her children's ears and brows, or the hesitation of Chellam and her empty suitcase on each separate stair, "she's pregnant."

  The word, so raw they can almost smell it, contorts Amma's mouth, offering the children an unaccustomed view of her teeth. It makes Suresh drop his eyelids and retreat into the complex patterns he's spent his young life finding in the tabletop Formica. Men in bearskins. Trees with faces. Hook-nosed monks.

  "On top of everything she has taken all that raffia from the storeroom without even asking," Amma observes with a sigh and a long, loud slurp of her tea. Even this is out of character: Amma usually drinks her tea in small, silent sips, her lips barely parting at the rim of her mug.

  For her journey home, Chellam has dressed herself in a striped men's shirt with a stiff collar and a brown nylon skirt with a zipper in the back. The shirt is a hand-me-down from Appa. The skirt isn't. "Look at her," Amma says again through a mouthful of Marie biscuit, this time to no one in particular. "Just look at her. Dares to wear the shirt I gave her after all the havoc she's caused. Vekkum illai these people. No bloody shame. Month after month I packed up and gave her your Appa's shirts. Courthouse shirts, man, Arrow brand, nice soft cotton, all new-new. In which other house servants wear that type of quality clothes?"

  In no other house, thinks Suresh. There aren't any other houses, at least on Kingfisher Lane, staffed with scrawny servant girls dressed in ove
rsized hundred-percent cotton courthouse shirts. If they'd saved Appa's ties they could've had her wear those as well. And a bowler hat and gloves. Then they could've had her answer the door like a butler.

  "Hmph," Amma snorts into her teacup, "here I was trying to help her out, giving her clothes and telling her she could save her money for more useful things."

  Financial counseling and free shirts: a special Big House–only package deal. It had filled Amma with purpose and consequence, and had indeed impelled Chellam to try to save her money for More Useful Things. That is, until she realized that her father would turn up month after month to collect her wages on payday at the Big House, and that she was therefore saving her money for his daily toddies and samsus. For the back-street arrack that gave him the vision and vigor to beat his wife and children at home, and the cloudy rice wine the toddy shop owner made in a bathroom basin. Still, if you asked Chellam's father (or the toddy shop owner), these were all Useful Things.

  "In the end look what she's done with my charity and my advice," Amma says, wrapping up her tale with a jerk of the head towards the staircase. "She's taken them and thrown both one shot in my face. Just wait, one by one the others also will be doing the same thing. Why not? After seeing her example they'll also become just as bold. Vellamma can murder me, Letchumi can murder Appa, Mat Din can burn the house down, and Lourdesmary can stand and clap. Happily ever after."

  Aasha and Suresh silently note that they themselves are absent from this macabre prophecy. If Amma's words can be taken at face value, the long fingers of fate will clutch at Suresh and Aasha but miss; for this they should probably feel lucky.

  But they don't.

  Suresh is grateful only that Chellam doesn't understand much English and is slightly hard of hearing (from all the clips her father's fists, heavy with toddy and samsu, visited upon her ears in childhood). He notes that for some reason she's left her suitcase leaning against the banister and hurried back upstairs. He isn't going to point this out to Amma.